Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Sisterhood of Sadness...

One of my Boston Baby Board friends posted this poem for me a few weeks back - I thought it was very touching and want to remember it.

A Sisterhood of Sadness

"I was once a member of the Pregnancy Club, my membership card consisting of two pink lines on a stick.

I was eager to pay my dues, just like all the other members. Morning sickness, stretch marks, cravings -- I welcomed them all. But they never came.

And before I knew it, my membership was revoked. No real reason -- at least none I could discern -- other than bad timing, perhaps. Or, at least, that's what everyone's been telling me. That and "God's plan."

Miscarriage is a terrible word. As if one has dropped something, or carried something incorrectly. Similar to "mistake" or "misunderstanding." How I longed for it to be either of those things when I learned my baby was gone. Surely, it was a mistake, I prayed. If they would just look again, they would learn it was all a simple misunderstanding.

But the ultrasound screen showed otherwise.

1 out of every 5 pregnancies ends in miscarriage, say the books. That statistic terrified me when I was pregnant. So many lost babies, I thought. How can I keep mine from being one of them? But now that mine is one of them, that 1 out of 5 seems awfully small. Or, at least, it did. Until soft-speaking female voices started whispering to me in my grief, "It happened to me, too."

Their eyes told me the stories of the pain that we shared, the pain that only a woman who has carried a child - and lost it - could know. For some, it was fresh pain. For others, it was dulled by healthy babies since born.

A sisterhood of Sadness. It's a silent group, this new club of which I have recently become a reluctant member. Our membership cards are the scars we will always carry on our hearts. Our dues are paid in blood and tears. It is a painful initiation, and one never ceases membership. Because one never forgets. I am joining, not because I want to, but because I wasn't given the choice.

But at least I know I'm not alone. At least I know there are hundreds of thousands of women with me, however silent and invisible, quietly holding my hand."

Monday, October 30, 2006

It's been awhile, baby....

And so sorry for that. Life has been CRAZY with a capital C since we got back from San Diego.
Don't have much to write about for now - but I hope to be starting a new blog soon, just give me a few weeks, ok?

Some pics from CA for you to enjoy...

Visiting CA for Becky's wedding was so much fun! I even survived the flights which I never thought would happen!

Crafting Update:
The amount of knitting and crocheting that I have done in the last few weeks has been obscene. No - I am not close to finishing Rogue - but I am getting there. A few other projects have caught my attention including Craft Girls Holiday Gifts!!! I'll start posting pics of non holiday-related gifts soon.

Weekend in review: 10/28 - 10/29
Well all the plans I had for this weekend got cancelled due to complications I spent my weekend lying down, sitting, watching a ton of sports and Halloween shows, and ended it with carving pumpkins!

Can you guess which once Cesar carved?

If I don't get to post tomorrow, HAVE A HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Sunday, September 24, 2006

Weekend in review - 9/23 - 9/24

Hola - long time no blog - life is kinda boring so not much to say.

Weekend was nice and relaxing - got a bunch of little things done, spent some time with Barbara and her family, and even cooked my first roasted chicken!

Rogue Update:
Here is where I am so far. I finished the body, and am starting the upper back. I am a few rows into the back since this picture. Here are some nice pics of the detail on the sides of the pullover.

I am actually wearing the pullover in that picture - and I am happy to report that it fits very nicely. :-)

I have to toot my own horn because I can - and say I am very proud of myself for tackling this pullover. When I first looked at it, I not only fell in love with it, but was intimidated by it. I never thought I could do such involved cabling.

Chicken Dinner:
It was wonderful. My first roast chicken, stuffed with onions & celery, seasoned with olive oil, cumin, garlic poweder and I am sure a few other things (Cesar did that part). We also had it with mom's candied carrot recipe that we usually have at Easter time. Here is the recipe - I highly recommend it:

Candied Carrots (I think this came from old school Betty Crocker Cookbook or something)

2 Tbs Butter or Margarine
1/4 C Light Brown Sugar
2 Tbs Yellow Mustard
1/4 tsp. Salt
3 Cups sliced carrots, cooked and drained.

1. Melt butter in a skillet over medium heat.
2. Stir in brown sugar, mustard and salt.
3. Add in cooked carrots.
4. Toss to coat

It is fabulous!

I know that the dinner smelled good because we had a little visitor come because the smell coming out of the oven was so yummy!

That is our neighbor's cat - I think!

Gotta run - I'll update soon!

Monday, September 04, 2006

Labor Day Weekend in Review

What a great weekend! A nice mix of relaxing, knitting, scrapping and housework - if only sleeping late also happened - then it would be perfect!

Friday: Erin and Bethe came over for a Rogue kick off
It was a rough start seeing that the twisted knit stitch was giving my hands yarn burn - but finally after 12 rows of it - I don't have to do it again for awhile.

Saturday: I can't even tell you what I did Saturday - I can hardly remember! I think it was a bit of nothing! A bunch of knitting, watched a few movies, went to the mall, did some journaling on my New Home scrapbook, did a ton of laundry...thats about it!

Sunday: Met Bethe & Erin for Breakfast in Worcester, and then off to Barnes & Noble to knit for awhile. After I got back, I washed the shower curtain for the first time (I was scared of ruining it, so that is why I never washed it before), washed the tub, etc...Saturday night - filled with knitting again!

Monday: Cesar mowed the lawn, I put down grub killer, Finished laundry, made Chicken Parm and knit Rogue again... Here is a pic of progress on Rogue. I am a bit farther along now since this picture. I know it looks like a pretzel, but if you click on the Rogue link - you will see that it is not. The sunflower was grown from the sunflower seeds that were given as a favor at Barbara's daughter's Baptism. :-)

I think that is about it for now - I'll try to be better at updating this.


Monday, August 28, 2006

It's been a long time, baby...

Sorry I have not been updating on a regular basis - not a heck of a lot going on I guess!

Had a nice short vacation to the Cape last week with Cesar - we got to eat at our favorite restaurant, Kreme & Kone (Corn) which is so good! It is in Dennisport and I highly reccomend it to any Cape visitor!

Craft day was a great time as always - I actually scrapped 5 pages if you can believe that! Talk about progress! I did a tad bit of knitting on Jim's sweater which is looking mighty nice if I do saw so myself. I was going to swatch for ROGUE:

but realized that it is knit in the round - and I don't have the right sized needles. Thankfully - my lovely knitting buddy Erin is lending me her needles for Rogue and I can swatch on Weds - YEAH! Rogue kick off is on Friday - I can't wait!

Ok - gotta get in the shower and head to work - any updates with you ladies?

Monday, August 14, 2006

Moments to re-live...

While this weekend was filled with scrapping, knitting, crocheting, cooking Peruvian food and feeling like poop most of Sunday...I ended up turning to my favorite form of relaxation....watching "Felicity". I admit I read through all 4 seasons and could not find one I wanted to I thought about watching the extra footage.

The extra footage on the final season focused on the finale and all the moments they had together (on the show) and one of the episodes in the final season was Felicity going back in time to choose Noel over Ben...which got me thinking...

What moments in my life would I LOVE to relive? Maybe not change, but to experience over again... Here is my list so far - not in order of importance...

1. Graduation day at Assumption College. Till then - the most happy day of my life. I hated "school - tests, studying, homework" and I was sooooo happy to be in the working world.

2. Day that Cesar proposed: Easter 2002. That FAR passed graduation day happiness.

3. Wedding Day - May 31, 2003. No explination needed here I can assure you. :-)

How about you?

Now here are the moments that I am blessed that I actually GET to re-live often:

1. Christmas Eve - and the whole month leading up to Christmas
2. Craft Days! OH how I love craft days!
3. Long conversations with close friends which leave you with fuzzy warm feelings about female friendship bonds and how lucky you are to have so many of them close to your heart.

Ok - think that is it for to work.

Monday, August 07, 2006

New rules, bridal showers, and lobster...

New rule in the house
Do not grab Tricia by the shoulders and shake her when she is having a bad dream because it can turn into this:

Tricia: gggrggrrrrrroooooommmmmmm (like a moaning sound - picture a ghost)

Cesar: wake up - wake up (shaking with both hands on Tricia's shoulders)


All at 4am.

Bridal Shower
Becky's bridal shower was great! We all had so much fun! How can you not with a theme of coffee and desserts!

Sunday night, Sharon and Roy came over to give us Lobster 101 - surf & turf style. I ate my first lobster and actually liked it! I just don't like when you see the green stuff, and they you are supposed to eat where the thing takes a sh* thanks. I cut that part off and enjoyed the tail. I did hold the lobster which was a first for me! Thank you so much Sharon and Roy!

Here are just a few pics from our night!